This will make very little sense-just accept first that I'm an idiot(which shouldn't be too hard!)
Now-move on...:

Today I have resolved nothing except things within my own head. I should really mention to my colleagues that I have resolved issues and that i will not be so stupid in future-but it seems undoable!Was all fired up this morning and then through ppl not being in etc i never got to give my speech!
And i was sick and headachey and scared and stuff
And then..it was like...seeing as how what I've realised is that a lot of issues were created by me in my own head...it all got better.
I got work back that wasn't crap
And had nice conversations
and am currently sitting alone in my office pondering walking to the shop to buy a yummy roll =) even though the weather's crap and grey.

So I'll still need to have a meeting-but then we all need to have a meeting-so it's not all pressured and weird so much!

It's really nice not to have your head hurt (much!)

And i'm thinking coming into work on Monday will be ok!

And I'll no longer have to dream the dream I had this morning where i woke up 12 hours late!!! which was nice =)

And not only that, I'm going home this weekend
And I'm gonna sleep past 6.45 which is when I've been waking the last 2 weeks...actually I'm amazed I haven't accused someone of trying to kill me!sleep deprivation DOES TOO cause paranoia!

hrmm shall I go for food? i think maybe!

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This is true (and don't be offended).

This is getting updated for one reason and one reason only.

It's half 9 and I'm in NUIG and I have to go home and do another million (/5 or so) hours of work and I'm desperately trying to find valid ways of avoiding doing so....kinda like the way you wake up in the morning and try to convince yourself that that IS a pain you have in your stomach and your head really DOES hurt and you're NOT inventing it and, therefore, not getting up at all would not only be a valid action but would also be SENsible-it might be contagious for god's sake!!!
You know that simile seemed simile-ishly(simile-ly? similaicly??(ooh I like that one ;) )) valid when I began on it but I'm not sure any more. But just take it from me that I'm not in happy bunny camp and pretty much wanna run away from home...which is pretty doable seeing as how there's very little food there at the mo (clearly, one couldn't run away from a well stocked larder...that's just crazy talk!)

Work is crazy...or I'm crazy or my company's crazy or something...I'm trying to figure it out at the moment...

It's like this..there are 4 of us and we divide down into 2 groups of 2-now in my group I end up picking up extra work because I'm faster-which is fine for the most part-except it means that the project that I thought would be done last wednesday was done...ooh...by Monday evening? and if I hadn't been a million miles ahead of schedule on the one due on Fridaythere'd be no way in HELL it would get done....and as it is, I still have acres to cover because I know that if I don't do it, it just won't get done in time....

But you see that's only part of it...because generally I don't work evenings or weekends-i feel I'm pretty entitled to that tbh ;) but as for the OTHER group of two-it's really difficult to tell how my output compares to theirs becasue they SEEM to work weekends and evenings and all sorts...

So on one hand I feel like I'm working crazily-and on the other hand I feel like I'm not working enough!!My tiny brain (1/3 the size of a man's...that's science you know..!) was not made for such contradictory input!!

MY GOD they all told me that blogs were tremendous ways of bitching at the world but who knew it was so true =)!!!!

And all in all I think that's where I am at the moment. All the holidays are over for a while, I still don't have summer hols organised in the slightest, there's not much to look forward to til the endish of the month which seems very far away for some reason-oh and also if at least one client doesn't get a wriggle on, I won't get paid this friday.

And you know the worst bit? none of this would bother me unless I was so damn tired-and so what do I do instead of going home and working so I can get to sleep earlier??!I write here!


IN OTHER NEWS (this is the fluffy section about penguins who rescue flying monkey babies from bullying gazelles...ors)

I passed my driver theory test-a test indeed AIMED at monkeys!! I'm ashamed that I in fact harboured doubts as to whether I'd pass it...questions like: If the red light is showing you a) Stop b) Plough down pedestrians while talking on your mobile phone c) Use branches to camouflage your car and hide it in a schoolyard were not that taxing...

There's another person miving into my house at the weekend who hopefully is nice-there's actually another 3 ppl to move in yet so chances are at least one of them will be even more of an idiot than I am...the house will burn down...oh yes it will....
Actually it occurs that I have no logical reason to think they'll be more idiotic than me...perhaps I'll retain my crown =)

ermmm OH yes I taught my last uni class today so I did...so thats me done with job no.2-which you'd think would make it easier but I dunno...I have enjoyed getting up an hour later once a week....am pondering working from home more often =)

yes that's it! too tired to think of any anecdotes-wouldn't know what they were if one bit me

Know what piranhas are though-there's two on the mantlepiece at home...and a strange statue called 'Glorph' apparently....housemates do make one wonder...oh yes...!!


Running!!
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